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by Alice Grist
Sharni asked me to write a piece for Sharnanigans, and whilst I love Sharni, and I love Sharnanigans, and I really, really wanted to write for her, I was uninspired.
I have been this way in general of late. I always have a million ideas buzzing around my busy head, but I have not recently allowed any of them to settle. I have not given credit, thought or brain power to a single one, and instead I have allowed them to float back into the ether from which they came.
I am utterly uninspired. You know what though… I like it. I am finding my lack of inspiration to be… well… to be quite, quite inspirational.
You see I am a busy bee. Since late 2007 I found a bone of ambition and creativity within myself that I did not know existed previously. And like any old dog with a bone, I refused to put it down. Woof woof.
The end result being that I have worked myself into the ground. Despite all sensible inclinations to slow down, I have carried on come headache, hell or high temperature. I have become one of those busy people. I have become superwoman, I have become… bored!
The last year and a half has, in particular been crazy. My first book The High Heeled Guide to Enlightenment came out in September 2009. I quickly followed this up by writing The High Heeled Guide to Spiritual Living. I wrote this whilst starting up and running the new spiritual network that I formed this year Soul-Café.net. Besides this I have had a constant stream of bits of promotional work, including a handful of very late night interviews with America. Did I mention also that I am selling my house and also have a totally unrelated full time job?
I have been a crazily busy girl. Happily my full –time job allows me to take holiday time, most of which I used finishing off The High Heeled Guide to Spiritual Living! It’s a dog’s life, but I’m not moaning. All of this has been my choice. I could have chosen not to do half the stuff that I have. Yet in spite of all the signs I have had telling me to slow down, including two quite timely rear end car crashes. I have just kept on going. I believe that my guides and angels have given up on the big messages such as car crashes and have agreed to let me simply burn myself out. Their work is done, I am hibernating and I like it!
Being uninspired is my current gift from the goddess! Having forced myself into my ambitious writers high-heeled and spiritual shoes, this sudden desire to don a pair of slippers and sup hot chocolate followed by doing a meditation that I don’t have to write about, is a rare treat. My workaholic tendencies have subsided and I feel overjoyed to be in a mental place where I can ignore the ideas for various new plans that pop into my head ten times a day. I currently just exist. I am bringing my uninspiration home, tucking it up in bed with me and finding my little inner light all on my own, and without the need to share.
I guess in writing this I am sharing. But I think it’s an important point. On a spiritual path… on any path… it’s important to take time out. I truly believed that the odd evening here or there of rest was sufficient. But it wasn’t. What I need is a hibernation of uninspiration, and to know that being uninspired is sometimes the most inspiring thing that can happen to you. Next time you are feeling uninspired then know this, you are uninspired for a very good reason! Enjoy!
